To be Bound by you ~ chapter 4 ~

Chapter – 4

After what he told me that, he gave me three days then he left.

I was bewildered by what he said, I don’t know what to do, and why am I the one?

As I walked towards my first class, I didn’t notice Asahina – san calling me.

“Akito – kun, are you alright?” she asked.

“Ah, I am alright. I just have a lot in mind. That’s all” I replied.

“Oh... can you tell me what is it? Maybe I can help.” She said.

I really want to seek for her help, because she knows more about him than me, but I can’t bring myself to ask her.

So I just smiled and told her that.

“Nah, I’m good I think I can handle it. But I’ll keep that in mind”.

“Oh, ok. Then see you later, then”. She said.

Then she left.

I really don’t feel like entering this class, but it is not nice to the professor to just not enter her class. So I just walked in and sat at my usual seat. She came and discussed. While she was discussing I can’t help it but to just think of what that guy had told me.

“Please teach me to love again”. He said.

Then, suddenly my mind began to clear.

That is impossible!

Indeed impossible,

Because we are not friends, we have a huge gap, like in age. He is 28 yrs. Old. I’m just 20.  But almost all couples don’t mind age.

But He is already working; I’m just a university student. But almost all couple loves their partner if it is already working.

Wait...

Is it just me or everything I said, I just counter it with something positive?

But, still!!! THIS IS ENTIRELY IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

Were both guys!

I’m not gay!!

And I will never be one!

My dream is to have a family one day!

I don’t want to have a relationship that is taboo.

I never thought that my professor was already looking at me.

She called my attention.

“Mr.Yoshizumi! Attention please! Or do you want me to fail you. Always cutting in my class then, this!” she said.

After that dreadful hr. in school finally it was time to go home.

At first I thought that he would be waiting for me. But when I reached the front gate he was not there. Then, suddenly I felt a little wrong.

Why am I feeling this way? Of course he wouldn’t be here. After all he gave 3 days to think about it.

I reached home. Took a bath, and then made dinner.

I did this for the past 2days.

Then, finally it was the last day.

I haven’t heard about him.

 When I reached the front gate of the university, I had in mind that he would be here. But I got my hopes up for nothing. He wasn’t there.

I thought that maybe he was making fun of me or something. I feel stupid, for falling for it.

I knew this would happen.

But somehow, I felt a sudden pain in my heart. What the hell’s wrong with me?

I felt like I was somehow got my hopes up just for nothing.

I felt sick.

I ran as fast as I could, until I reached home.

That night, I didn’t ate, didn’t do anything.

I just took a bath then went to bed.

But I couldn’t just sleep it off, these feelings of mine.

I looked at the clock it was already 10pm, I couldn’t sleep.

So I thought of heading out, for a while thinking of breathing some fresh air.

I walked in a nearby convenient store, and bought some ice cold apple cider. I know that I’m not good in handling alcohol. But perhaps getting drunk will make me feel a little better.  So I bought 4 apple ciders. Then while I was walking I tried to drink one.  It doesn’t taste awful it tasted more like apple juice because of the sweetness and then a little bitter at the end when you swallowed it.

I didn’t realize that I already finished 2 bottles.  Then I decided to walk along the park.

When I was near the cherry tree, I didn’t noticed how beautiful it was, and then suddenly I heard voices.

When I looked around I saw him, with a guy.

I didn’t know how to react. I knew I was already drunk, and the cold wind making me more intoxicated.

Then suddenly our eyes met, he suddenly ran towards me. Then, for the first time I didn’t noticed that I was already crying. Then he suddenly held my hand, just like last time. 

Trying to stop me from getting away.

I tried to shove him. But it seems that I don’t have the strength to free myself from him.

“What’s wrong with you? Please let me talk to you.” He asked.

He dared ask what is wrong with me, for the fact that he knows what the fuck’s wrong with me.

Then, he tried to hug me. But I pushed him away so hard.

“You dared ask what the HELL’S WRONG WITH ME!?” I shouted.

I can no longer stop these overflowing feelings within me.

“How could you mess me up like this? I don’t know you, we are not even friends! We’re just merely acquaintance, and yet how could you make me turn this way?! Why?”

I also couldn’t stop crying. I know this is STUPID for I’m a guy and yet I cried because of a guy.

“Please calm down, you are drunk”. He said calmly, trying to calm me.

“NO! I won’t calm down.” I protested.

“How could you make fun of me? I can’t believe that I fell for it. For some times I thought that maybe what you are saying is true. And yet...”

 I didn’t finish my last sentence.

He suddenly kissed me, passionately.

This time the kiss was gentle yet powerful. His warm breath overwhelms me.

“Sorry for breaking my promise. I’ll make it up to you somehow.” He said under his breath.

Then he started kissing me again, he opened my mouth and he entered me, his tongue playfully played with mine.  This is the first time I experience this kind of kiss. It is filled with passionate desire.

After that heated passionate kiss, he suddenly hugged me tightly and while he was gasping for air, he said this under his breath.

“You are the one I love the most, and you still have a promise with me that you need to fulfill. That is why there is no way in this world that can let you be separated from me.”

His last statement got a big impact on me; there for once I noticed that he stopped me from crying. He then, held my left hand, and kissed the ring finger then, gave his warmest smile at me. 

“Prepare yourself, for I will about to change your life.” He said.

Then, he led me to his car. He told me that it was already 2am, so he drove me home.

We arrived at my place, so I invited him in for some coffee.

“You live alone in this house?” he asked.

“Ah, mn.” I mumbled.

“My parents got a divorce, my mom is in England and father is somewhere in Japan. I fought with my mom, just to go over here. Using study as an excuse, but my real motive was to look for my father”.

While we were drinking coffee, he suddenly stared at me.

I was a little bit uncomfortable. Then he suddenly said.

“I’m sorry but I can no longer hold it back”.

Then he suddenly kissed me, again. His hot breath tasted liked coffee with a hint of alcohol.

 Then he pushed me down to the couch. I tried to get up but he suddenly kissed me again, then he called me.

“Akito”

Being called by my first name, by this person, made me drown in ecstasy. 

At this point I finally noticed my own feelings, for him, and I know for certain that this is also the point of no return, once this is done there is no way my life will be back to normal.

Then, he hugged me tightly, and then he started kissing my neck down; it felt so hot, but when I touched his chest I could feel his heart racing and his body temperature rising.

One thing made me feel even hotter when he said.

“Akito, I love you.  Please, love me too”

Looking at my eyes seriously, his eyes were indeed serious but there is a hint of sorrow in those blue eyes of his.

Then he continues.

This is my first time doing this with a guy. Well it’s not that I have done it with a girl.

My mind is completely blank; I was already sucked in his intoxicating world.

How I wished I could pushed him before, because I knew what we are doing is wrong.

But we ended up doing it.  I had one last thought,

What will happen next? Did I do the right thing?

>>>>>>> End <<<<<<<<

WC – 1,469

(A/N)

Finally done with this chapter! After a long time of waiting.

I had a hard time typing the part of the scene. Because like what I said I don’t want it to have some more mature contents.

So I will leave the imaging to our lovable readers,

AKNOWLEDGEMENT!!

SPECIAL THANKS TO....

-                   Sekaiichi Hatsukoi – for the greatest reference specially to the couple * CHIAKI and TORI

-                   Solitude – Emma OST

-                   When love falls, Love Hurts, Farewell, Lost in Island, Spring time – Riyuma OST

-                   Story of evil, Meltdown, Just be friends, Imitation Black, - Vocaloid Music Box

-                   Anime OSTs

-                   Vocaloid/ Anime  piano arrangements

-                   Classical music

-                   And the Rainy weather

~ Yuurika yuukihime ~

  * look forward to the next chapter!

To Be Bound By You

Chapter – 3

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I woke up in the middle of the night, still bewildered by what kagyami-kun did to me.

I really have no clue why did he do that, but my heart was frantically beating, and I didn’t feel disgusted either. Then that question pop out of my head.

“Should I really feel disgusted?”

As I twist and turn in my bed. I never caught my sleep again. so I just looked at the clock, it was 4:05 in the morning.

I just got up, fixed my bed and headed to my closet and changed my clothes.  I thought that I should take a little jogging around the neighborhood while I’m thinking stuffs.

So I set around 4:30 am.

While I was jogging around the block, I thought some possibilities on why the hell did he do that.

So first, maybe he was drunk?

I tried to imagine, but it wouldn’t fit. Because first. If that person is drunk; he should be a little tipsy. But no, he is alright. He can speak clearly too. So the drunken possibility became impossible.

So next, maybe he is just playing with stuffs?

But then again, no! We’re just acquaintance…

unless…..

That thought alone stopped me from jogging.

No… that can’t possibly be right… t-that maybe he had feelings for me.

That thought alone, makes my heart beat ferociously. But, that is also impossible at the same time. Cause, first and foremost we’re just acquaintance. So we’re barely even friends. So how in the world he would have feelings for me, and to top it off we are both guys!! DAMN IT!

As I returned home, I looked at the clock it was 6 am already. 

So I hurried to the bath room to take a cold shower. To wash the dirt and sweat all over me. Then, I just hurried and pop out a milk carton in the fridge and poured some in the glass. Then I chugged it down, then place the glass in the sink.

And so I left home. I’m not sure if I’m ready to face either Asahina – san or him, specially.

But as I walk to my usual path, I felt something…

Something like… butterflies on my stomach…

But why am I nervous? It there something bad is gonna happen?

When I reached the gate I usually enter. 

I was surprised at myself.

Why am I feeling down all of the sudden?

This repeats for 3 straight weeks.

I haven’t seen asahina-san either.

So, I felt like I was back to normal, and I realized that normal life sucks.

There is no thrill in everyday life.

That’s when I realized again that, when I met him; he added color to my life just like a person who is gifted in art.

When I grew tired of my everyday routine, I tried to skipped school for a change.

I went on a nearby café and just sat and relaxed.

As I read the book I bought last time. I caught a glimpse of kagayami – kun, but he was with a lady this time. Her girlfriend maybe?

Then what makes him and moriyama-kun?

I suddenly felt nervous when he enters with her girl. Then I tried to hide my face with the book. But it was too late, he already recognized me.

“oh, fancy meeting you here.” He said.

I looked up slowly. Then answered him back with the calmest tone I can produce.

“oh,  same thing . I never thought of meeting you here.” I said. with a smile on my face.

“well then would you mind if we seat with you, this café is a little full” he asked.

“oh no, please do. I won’t mind. I’m just here reading a report.” I lied.

“I thought you have classes this hour.” He said.

“oh, my professor was not around, and I couldn’t find a place to read since the school grounds are quite full.” I answered.

I never met his eyes directly, whenever I answer him with a lie.

“but anyway who is that beautiful lady with you today?” I asked. Suddenly changing the topic.

“oh, her. She is just my…” he suddenly stopped when his phone rang.

“oh, please do excuse me” he said. standing up.

“oh, please do take your time” I said.

As he departs, I tried to look at the lady who was also looking at me.

Then she suddenly spoke in a high manner.

“My name is yuiko morihiko, just call me yuiko.” She introduced herself.

“oh.  I’m Akito yoshizumi, it’s a pleasure to meet you yuiko – san.” I answered.

She, then suddenly changed her smile into  a sad frown.

“what is the matter?” I asked.

“he… he is always like that.” She said.

“ what do you mean?” I asked.

I tried to understand her. I know that he means kagayami- kun.

Then, she suddenly spoke again.

“Whenever he goes out with anybody, Males, females. He never opens his heart. He can captivate us with his power but we are just like his mistresses who he calls whenever he needs company.” Yuiko suddenly opened up to me.

But still I don’t get it? What is the point in telling me?

It is not like I’m a target, right?

Then, that scene suddenly pops out of my head.

Then, what the hell does that mean?

Does it mean I’m kind of next to the harem?

So, does this mean I need to be more careful around him?

I really don’t get that.

Then, kagayami- kun went back to our table.

“sorry for making you wait. we should get back to the studio.” He said.

“oh, I  see. Well then, it is fun talking to you moriyama – kun.” she said. with a smile.

Then, I tried to smile back. Then wave them good bye.

As I was going back to the café. I got a glimpse of him and yuiko.

Yuiko was crying.

And that made me suddenly think.

What happened to her?

Then I went back inside to retrieve my things.

I decided to attend last period. Before lunch.

Then while I walked towards my usual path towards school.

I was bewildered on what I saw.

I couldn’t believe in my eyes.

He was there.

He was there waiting.

I ran towards him. At first, I thought that maybe he got another girl

That must be in the same school as me.

But, when he called my name.

My heart stopped, and I felt butterflies on my stomach.

I tried walking calmly towards him. 

Until I reached him.

But somehow I felt a little bit uncomfortable.

“I was looking for you.” He said in a low calm and velvety voice.

With those words I felt a little intoxicated.

“I want to tell you something.” He said.

Then, my heart suddenly skipped another beat.

As he goes on… I nearly drawn in his pretenses. Then suddenly one word caught my attention.

“will you go out, with me?” he said. Looking at me seriously.

I tried to reason out.

“are you nuts? We are both guys! For god damn sake. And you have yuiko-san with you?”

Then he replied.

“I may be crazy, but I cannot stop thinking of you day and night. And about her. I just dumped her awhile ago.”

Then, that hit me.

He suddenly dumped someone, because of me.

Then, one phrase Retained in my mind.

*he never opens his heart to anyone.*

So, I tried asking him.

“you may have hit your head. But I’ve learned something about you. I won’t be part of that harem of yours. They may said that you go out with anyone you pleased but. You never did put your heart into it. If I’m going into that relationship. I would rather die than to have that kind of heartless relationship.” I said. without thinking.

When I looked up. He was astonished as I was with myself.

“then, will you please teach me?” he asked.

“will you teach me to open my heart once again? will you teach me to love for real again?”

 he added.

With that. I don’t know what to say…

I had no more words in my mind….

I had a feeling that this is just the beginning of my life being changed.

Will there be more crazy stuffs going to happen?

******** end *******

What will happen next?

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authors note:

woah!!! Finally done with that chapter. Finally!

Now the next chapters would be filled with some scenes…

Please look forward to it.

Next,

While I was writing this my head was spinning… I get shivers down to my spine whenever I think of the lines and the things happening …

I dun know why, but when I try to imagine…. It sends shivers to me…hahah lol

Anyway thanks for reading… until next time ^^

~ domo minna

Yurika yuukihime ~ 

To Be Bound By You

chapter 2
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the next day, as i was walking on the usual path going to the university. i couldn't believe my eyes but, yes it was him. the gorgeous guy i saw yesterday. he was standing there near the university gate. i guess he was waiting for asahina-san, but afcourse this is not the time, i mean it's too early for him to wait for her, and as i was walking coming nearer and nearer to him. i feel a lot weirder than yesterday, then asahina-san suddenly taps my shoulder,  startling me. then he looked at our way. then smiled, his smile makes my heart ache, because i knew that...that smile was not meant for me...
i was even more startled by my own way of thinking making me more flustered than the smile itself and why should i feel this funny we didn't even know each other and for god's sake we are both guys!
 "good morning, yoshimizu-kun". she greeted me."ah,good morning, too". i really wanted to ask her about him, but i can't bring that up. then she started speaking again, "by the way, why did you ran off yesterday?"she asked. i couldn't think of a way to conceal what I've done yesterday. and i didn't realized that we've already reached the gate of the university, and as i looked up i saw her talking with him again, what is she doing? then she looked into me then held my hand, i just noticed that she was introducing me to him."hello, i'm hiroma kagayami it's a pleasure to finally meet you yoshizumi-kun" he held out his hand and smile. his voice always calm and velvety and his smile warm as ever. then he added "by the way i'm sorry for holding your hand yesterday".
i remembered the same warmth that unleashes in his hands, but  either way i just grabbed his hand and shake it."umm. it's a pleasure to meet you too..." i mumbled.
he laughed at me so brightly making asahina-san confused."what's wrong?" asahina asked.
"no-no nothing's wrong" he let a few laugh escaped. " he is just so cute" he looked at me with such warm eyes while smiling back at me. my heart thumped. " see... i told you he has a face" asahina teased.
"say, why won't you come with us for a while" he offered.
then, asahina-san pulled my arm closer. "come with us for awhile i want you to see where i am working, currently ". she reasoned out. i can't say no to their invite but i'd try not to come, but still i'm a little curious about this man standing beside me. since they acknowledge my silence as a yes, asahina-san pulled my arm towards the shiny car.
i sat on the front beside kagayami-kun and asahina-san sat at the back. asahina-san then broke of the silence by talking to us. "hey, umm. yoshimizu-kun can i call you akito? cause your name is so long so i'll try to call you by your first name, if it's alright?" she asked. "afcourse i'll let you call me mayumi or miyu/mayu/yumi/mami  which you prefer, so i'll call you akito or should i call you aki, nee? " she added. i have no choice so just let her call me anyway she wanted.
we reached the destination, i think. i was surprised to see that we were in a modeling company so i tried asking asahina about what are we doing in this kind of place.but when i decided to ask her another gorgeous person appeared before us.
he was very beautiful, his soft purple hair carefully gelled into place. he has a fair complexion more paler than kagayami-kun. he is also not that muscular but wearing a fitted black turtle-neck shirt made him appear more muscular. his height is like 6'9 or something like that. the thing that caught my attention the most was was his pale purple eyes. as he walked towards us.
he greeted both of them in a warm low voice. until our eyes met, he smiled at and held out his hand.
"hello, i'm moriyama, moriyama takahashi, it's a pleasure to meet you." he said with a stunning smile on his face.i just grabbed his hand and introduced my self with a smile.
kagayami-kun, broke the silence with his coughing making us look at him. then asahina-san suddenly changed the topic.
"hey!, i thought that we were going to show aki-kun the studio? then we better get ready cause he already missed his first subject... he can't missed the whole school, unless it alright for him." she said.
now all eyes are looking at me. i can't tell them that i can't be standing here right now, so i had no choice but to lie. "ehehe, it's alright. i guess"
"so we better get there and start this job done." asahina exclaimed.
moriyama joined us, as we walked towards the studio. then everyone went to their positions kagayami-kun went with moriyama-kun to the dressing room while asahina-san went to get her camera ready while talking to some staff about the lights. somehow i felt a little out of place but then kagayami-kun tapped my back, asking me in a low velvety voice.
"are you alright?" i was startled. so immediately answered back with a smile.
"i'm fine" i lied. then when i looked at him he just smiled back at me.
after that small talk, every was in their positions while i noticed what are their positions are. kagayami-kun as the fashion designer and moriyama-kun as their model while asahina-san is their photographer. in that photo shoot i felt like i somehow don't belong but, there was one exception to that thought and that is because there is someone who is holding unto me. i'm not sure if this feeling would betray me.
the photo shoot ended and i ended up skipping school altogether. as i was planning to go home by myself he suddenly appeared before me. kagayami-kun appeared and he asked me if i wanted to have a lift. i was about to decline his offer until moriyama-kun appeared before us. suddenly kagayami-kun pulled me inside and started driving leaving moriyama-kun. i was so confused. until we reached the train station, my head is filled about his actions toward moriyama-kun. i had 2 questions lingering my head.
1.) why did he avoid moriyama-kun?
2.) what kind of relation do the both of them share?
i know i don't have the right to think about this things, cause i don't have anything to do with them. but somehow i'm a little curious on what is happening right now.
But, this action was beyond reasoning. i was about to come out from his car, but then he pulled me closer and stole my first kiss. i looked at him, puzzled. then i tried to reason with him why did he did that, also trying to tell him that for god's sake we were both male. but he just kept silent. so without a word of thanks i got out of his car. but there is only one thing he said before i slam the door, and it still rings in my head, the word that made me flustered. the word.
i love you.
>>>>> to be continued <<<<<<<<<

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To Be Bound By You

characters:
hiroma kagayami - a fashion designer with a very bad temper he is a perfectionist and he goes out with anybody even though he doesn't have any mutual affection for that certain person, until he met yoshizumi akito.
akito yoshizumi - a normal collage student who is loved by every one because of his personality and appearance that not only girls but also guys dared to go with him.
takahashi moriyama - a model who works with hiroma and he is overly confident with himself, he harbors romantic feelings for hiroma and feels insanely jealous to akito, because of the attention hiroma had given him.
mayumi asahina - a classmate of akito, and has a crush on the model takahashi , the ears of the whole characters. aspiring novelist who coincidentally loves BL novels. a part time photographer that handles the model takahashi.

preface

if i hadn't go back to Japan i wouldn't have met you and make my life as messy as what your designs are. but if i hadn't gone back then i guess i would have missed the most important part of my life. if i hadn't met you i still won't know a single thing about love. you are the culprit for making my life this messy, yet you are the one that add color to my dull and boring life. as i gently caress the palm of your warm and big hand, stroking every line; as you look at me with warm and loving eyes as you gently caress my head and kissed me earnestly, making my mind into a haze. but still i don't regret every single thing that happened that involves you. All the pain i endured all the happiness i felt i will cherish them all. because they are all part of the memories that you and i shared.

chapter 1

it's been 2 years since my mom took me away from my father and flew all the way to England, and now i finally brake loose of what happened 2 years ago and decide to went back  here to study collage. i really don't know what to do in this place i may speak in Japanese but i can tell that they would treat me as an outsider like they've treated me back there. the truth behind me leaving my mom is that i wanted to see my father even if it's just a short glance i really wanted to see him so badly. I want to ask him so many questions, perhaps it would be all about this past 2 years.
As i walked toward my school i felt a little odd, maybe because i'm not used to it. I mean this is my first time in collage, after all. then i just realized that i had stopped walking i tried to walk again but someone came to me and asked."umm. excuse me but do you know where i can find S university?". she was indeed beautiful, but i really don't have time in this kind of stuff. "oh" i smiled at her."i'm going to the same place, would like to accompany me?". i asked her. but i know that she would decline."sure". she said with a sign of relief. the wind blew her soft curly brunette hair when she looked at me her black eyes were sparkling like she is full of light, then she smiled at me and held her hand up." i'm mayumi asahina, hope we became good friends". i held her soft cold hand."i'm akito yoshizumi, i'm sure we will be friends". i smiled.
Then we started walking again."oh by the way, what would be your department?" she asked." oh. i would be in the science department, since my course involves astronomy." " well, how about you?" i tried to asked her too."me? um. well i would be in the english department, since my course is english literature" " anyway why do you picked astronomy as your course?"" well maybe because i was kinda sucked up to stars and constellations,but i also want to go to a conservatory since i am fond of music".
"ohh. then why did you choose to go in this school then?". she asked me. as i can see in her expression she was a little confused. but i myself don't know why did i choose to be in a school studying stars when what i like the most is music. "why indeed" i murmured. then there was a little silence as we walked to the path near the building were the entrance is located.
As we entered the building we both bid farewell to each other, then as i walked to my first class. I sat near the window, then the professor appears and discussed the lesson, it was english so i decided  that i should take some notes about the lesson, as times go by the classes have ended. as i walked out side i saw her standing near the entrance. i guess she was waiting for someone. a friend maybe? then our glances met, then she waved at me cheerfully so i just waved back."hey! why did you took so long?"she asked."ahahahah, i'm sorry i didn't know that you would be waiting for me.""hmm, anyway let's go eat i want to thank you for helping me earlier. don't worry it would be my treat". i just can't say no to her. since it's for free."sure". i agree.
as we walked out side. every one was making a commotion, every one was murmuring, so i looked ahead and saw the shiny black BMW convertible. in there, was a gorgeous young guy, he has a fair complexion and his body is not that muscular but there are still some muscles, then his soft black hair is smoothed on top of his head. even though we are both guys, i do still think he is the most gorgeous guy i ever saw. i never thought that i was staring at him for a very long time when his soft blue eyes catches mine then he smiled warmly, i felt blood gushing through my cheeks. i was stunned by his looks then he gets off in his car. i was mesmerized by how tall he is. i think he is 7ft. tall and the way he moved. so graceful. for some reason my heart just skipped a beat. i was dazzled by this person who is coming towards us. then i looked at asahina- san, i was surprised by the way she looked. she looked like she wanted to run, to run away from the beautiful person.
as were about to run the guy held my hand stopping us from running away. he spoked in a calm manner, his voice was deep and velvet like."i won't going to let you go! asahina". i yanked out my hand from his warm grip."oh, i'm sorry." he apologize, to me his voice sincere. it seems like he knew asahina -san, lovers maybe?
i began to reason out, to go away from them. i don't know what is happening to me. but i felt a little overwhelmed about this situation."umm, i guess i better go" " ah! " asahina-san tried to stop me but i knew it's too late. i just run as fast as i can until i reached the train station. i felt a little remorse on what i did. as i entered the train silently. my head filled with him and asahina-san. i don't know what is happening to me right now, but i have a strong feeling this is just the beginning and there is no end, is it?

>>> To Be Continued

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