To be Bound by you ~ chapter 4 ~

Chapter – 4

After what he told me that, he gave me three days then he left.

I was bewildered by what he said, I don’t know what to do, and why am I the one?

As I walked towards my first class, I didn’t notice Asahina – san calling me.

“Akito – kun, are you alright?” she asked.

“Ah, I am alright. I just have a lot in mind. That’s all” I replied.

“Oh... can you tell me what is it? Maybe I can help.” She said.

I really want to seek for her help, because she knows more about him than me, but I can’t bring myself to ask her.

So I just smiled and told her that.

“Nah, I’m good I think I can handle it. But I’ll keep that in mind”.

“Oh, ok. Then see you later, then”. She said.

Then she left.

I really don’t feel like entering this class, but it is not nice to the professor to just not enter her class. So I just walked in and sat at my usual seat. She came and discussed. While she was discussing I can’t help it but to just think of what that guy had told me.

“Please teach me to love again”. He said.

Then, suddenly my mind began to clear.

That is impossible!

Indeed impossible,

Because we are not friends, we have a huge gap, like in age. He is 28 yrs. Old. I’m just 20.  But almost all couples don’t mind age.

But He is already working; I’m just a university student. But almost all couple loves their partner if it is already working.

Wait...

Is it just me or everything I said, I just counter it with something positive?

But, still!!! THIS IS ENTIRELY IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

Were both guys!

I’m not gay!!

And I will never be one!

My dream is to have a family one day!

I don’t want to have a relationship that is taboo.

I never thought that my professor was already looking at me.

She called my attention.

“Mr.Yoshizumi! Attention please! Or do you want me to fail you. Always cutting in my class then, this!” she said.

After that dreadful hr. in school finally it was time to go home.

At first I thought that he would be waiting for me. But when I reached the front gate he was not there. Then, suddenly I felt a little wrong.

Why am I feeling this way? Of course he wouldn’t be here. After all he gave 3 days to think about it.

I reached home. Took a bath, and then made dinner.

I did this for the past 2days.

Then, finally it was the last day.

I haven’t heard about him.

 When I reached the front gate of the university, I had in mind that he would be here. But I got my hopes up for nothing. He wasn’t there.

I thought that maybe he was making fun of me or something. I feel stupid, for falling for it.

I knew this would happen.

But somehow, I felt a sudden pain in my heart. What the hell’s wrong with me?

I felt like I was somehow got my hopes up just for nothing.

I felt sick.

I ran as fast as I could, until I reached home.

That night, I didn’t ate, didn’t do anything.

I just took a bath then went to bed.

But I couldn’t just sleep it off, these feelings of mine.

I looked at the clock it was already 10pm, I couldn’t sleep.

So I thought of heading out, for a while thinking of breathing some fresh air.

I walked in a nearby convenient store, and bought some ice cold apple cider. I know that I’m not good in handling alcohol. But perhaps getting drunk will make me feel a little better.  So I bought 4 apple ciders. Then while I was walking I tried to drink one.  It doesn’t taste awful it tasted more like apple juice because of the sweetness and then a little bitter at the end when you swallowed it.

I didn’t realize that I already finished 2 bottles.  Then I decided to walk along the park.

When I was near the cherry tree, I didn’t noticed how beautiful it was, and then suddenly I heard voices.

When I looked around I saw him, with a guy.

I didn’t know how to react. I knew I was already drunk, and the cold wind making me more intoxicated.

Then suddenly our eyes met, he suddenly ran towards me. Then, for the first time I didn’t noticed that I was already crying. Then he suddenly held my hand, just like last time. 

Trying to stop me from getting away.

I tried to shove him. But it seems that I don’t have the strength to free myself from him.

“What’s wrong with you? Please let me talk to you.” He asked.

He dared ask what is wrong with me, for the fact that he knows what the fuck’s wrong with me.

Then, he tried to hug me. But I pushed him away so hard.

“You dared ask what the HELL’S WRONG WITH ME!?” I shouted.

I can no longer stop these overflowing feelings within me.

“How could you mess me up like this? I don’t know you, we are not even friends! We’re just merely acquaintance, and yet how could you make me turn this way?! Why?”

I also couldn’t stop crying. I know this is STUPID for I’m a guy and yet I cried because of a guy.

“Please calm down, you are drunk”. He said calmly, trying to calm me.

“NO! I won’t calm down.” I protested.

“How could you make fun of me? I can’t believe that I fell for it. For some times I thought that maybe what you are saying is true. And yet...”

 I didn’t finish my last sentence.

He suddenly kissed me, passionately.

This time the kiss was gentle yet powerful. His warm breath overwhelms me.

“Sorry for breaking my promise. I’ll make it up to you somehow.” He said under his breath.

Then he started kissing me again, he opened my mouth and he entered me, his tongue playfully played with mine.  This is the first time I experience this kind of kiss. It is filled with passionate desire.

After that heated passionate kiss, he suddenly hugged me tightly and while he was gasping for air, he said this under his breath.

“You are the one I love the most, and you still have a promise with me that you need to fulfill. That is why there is no way in this world that can let you be separated from me.”

His last statement got a big impact on me; there for once I noticed that he stopped me from crying. He then, held my left hand, and kissed the ring finger then, gave his warmest smile at me. 

“Prepare yourself, for I will about to change your life.” He said.

Then, he led me to his car. He told me that it was already 2am, so he drove me home.

We arrived at my place, so I invited him in for some coffee.

“You live alone in this house?” he asked.

“Ah, mn.” I mumbled.

“My parents got a divorce, my mom is in England and father is somewhere in Japan. I fought with my mom, just to go over here. Using study as an excuse, but my real motive was to look for my father”.

While we were drinking coffee, he suddenly stared at me.

I was a little bit uncomfortable. Then he suddenly said.

“I’m sorry but I can no longer hold it back”.

Then he suddenly kissed me, again. His hot breath tasted liked coffee with a hint of alcohol.

 Then he pushed me down to the couch. I tried to get up but he suddenly kissed me again, then he called me.

“Akito”

Being called by my first name, by this person, made me drown in ecstasy. 

At this point I finally noticed my own feelings, for him, and I know for certain that this is also the point of no return, once this is done there is no way my life will be back to normal.

Then, he hugged me tightly, and then he started kissing my neck down; it felt so hot, but when I touched his chest I could feel his heart racing and his body temperature rising.

One thing made me feel even hotter when he said.

“Akito, I love you.  Please, love me too”

Looking at my eyes seriously, his eyes were indeed serious but there is a hint of sorrow in those blue eyes of his.

Then he continues.

This is my first time doing this with a guy. Well it’s not that I have done it with a girl.

My mind is completely blank; I was already sucked in his intoxicating world.

How I wished I could pushed him before, because I knew what we are doing is wrong.

But we ended up doing it.  I had one last thought,

What will happen next? Did I do the right thing?

>>>>>>> End <<<<<<<<

WC – 1,469

(A/N)

Finally done with this chapter! After a long time of waiting.

I had a hard time typing the part of the scene. Because like what I said I don’t want it to have some more mature contents.

So I will leave the imaging to our lovable readers,

AKNOWLEDGEMENT!!

SPECIAL THANKS TO....

-                   Sekaiichi Hatsukoi – for the greatest reference specially to the couple * CHIAKI and TORI

-                   Solitude – Emma OST

-                   When love falls, Love Hurts, Farewell, Lost in Island, Spring time – Riyuma OST

-                   Story of evil, Meltdown, Just be friends, Imitation Black, - Vocaloid Music Box

-                   Anime OSTs

-                   Vocaloid/ Anime  piano arrangements

-                   Classical music

-                   And the Rainy weather

~ Yuurika yuukihime ~

  * look forward to the next chapter!